Fathers Day 2015 – The last of the firsts…

First, let me wish all of you Fathers a very Happy Fathers Day!

May you be celebrated for all of the things you have done and all that you will continue to do for your family!

For me, today marks the final major holiday of firsts that we will acknowledge without our family patriarchs physical presence…  It has been a very difficult year of firsts, but my family has made it through this, TOGETHER!  We are fortunate to have each other to carry us through and I couldn’t love them more.

I am also aware of the significance of this day for my children; a day to honor the main male role model in their lives – it pains me that they cannot do this in person, but I know my children and I am certain that their Father will be honored, no matter where he is!

He will be honored:

This man, their Father… the man who upon their births was too emotional to inform me of their gender, I still can see the look in his eyes of pure amazement…

This man, their Father… who took part in the neighborhood carpool to school.

This man, their Father… stepped up to coach many softball/baseball teams.

This man, their Father… the one that we all looked to for advice.

This man, their Father… who will continue to watch over us and guide us from his new home…

I trust they know how much their Father took pride in all that they achieved and spoke highly of them often.

Happy Fathers Day to you Steve, you deserve the highest of honors!!

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Spring 2015

Thought I would bring you up to date on my crazy life 🙂  Since we last spoke I’ve been rather busy!

Besides physical exercise, it has been my goal to have something on my calendar AT LEAST daily… I’ve pretty much conquered that challenge –  The following in a brief recap of my life of late…

March

While Erin & Tommy were rafting the Grand Canyon, in honor of their Dad’s birthday…

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I was in Washington; enjoying time with my daughter-in-law (Lindsey), her Momma, my Sister and my grandbaby…  We participated in a longstanding tradition of Lindsey’s family for the St. Patrick’s Day Dash!

It was a rainy morning but we were surrounded by SO many happy people!

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I had the good fortune to attend the Garth Brooks concert TWICE while it rolled through Sacramento…

Once with my Sister, a couple of cousins, nephew and his wife and additional friends!!!  It was an evening to remember…

Special thanks to my nephew JoeBoo for watching over us ladies ♥

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and another with my kids and grandbaby!!!  This was Harlow’s first concert and she took every.single.minute in!!!

Her favorite songs were ‘Standing Outside The Fire’ and Tricia Yearwood’s ‘She’s In Love With The Boy’…

There was definitely not a dry eye in the house when Garth sang ‘The Dance’…

It was a group sing along with SO much emotion –

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both nights were amazing; not only was Garth an entertainer beyond words but to share the time with family and friends was awesome!!

April

I participated in my first group bike ride – After several months of spin class I deceided to register for a group road bike ride.  This was a 17.5 mile ride on a mountain bike…

The group that I rode with were all on road bikes…  My appetite was whet…  I had to look in to getting a road bike!

May

I was hooked!!!  I needed to get a road bike to enjoy the freedom of bike riding!

May 3rd I began my journey with this beauty…

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I rode another 22 mile ride and have also completed my first 40 mile road ride!!

I was fortunate enough to accompany my friend Kimmie (AKA my daughter-in-laws Mom) to Kauai for 10 days!!!

The timing could not have been better and what a blessed trip this turned out to be –

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We enjoyed a bonfire on the beach with locals (including a high school classmate that lives on the island) and a wonderful lunch oceanside with another high school classmate of mine!

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June

Spent an afternoon in the foothills enjoying lunch at a local winery with my cousin and sister

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Met up with a couple of high school friends for sushi!!!

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That brings us up to date!  I hope that you have had a great Spring and as we creep into Summer, I wish you a cool one…

We are in a drought here in CA, not going to be overly fun but we will get through it!

Until next time ~

Happy Birthday –

P7050071Today is Steve’s birthday, the first one without his actual presence.  He never liked to make a big deal about his birthday, so I won’t do it now, but I want to acknowledge the day as we always did and share some thoughts.

Erin and Tommy will be meeting up with some of Steve’s rafting family in Arizona today.  They will begin a 10 day rafting trip in the Grand Canyon.  Steve had rafted the Grand Canyon a few years ago and had the opportunity to go again this year; this was to be a trip he and Tommy would do.  Erin is taking Steve’s place, this being her maiden voyage on an extended raft trip.  I am so happy that my children are going to be able to spend 10 days together.  The time they share bonding, sharing stories with other rafters about their Dad will be something they will remember forever.  Here are some pictures from Steve’s previous trip –

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I will be in Washington today with my daughter-in-law Lindsey, my Sister Teri and my granddaughter Harlow.  We will honor Steve today on the Cedar River along the Cedar River Trail.  Steve has spent time running this trail on past visits.

We are still trying to move forward without the leader of our family, each of us struggle at different times but have the support of each other to help us along.  We are all trying to make him proud and ask ourselves WWSD (What Would Steve Do) when faced with uncertainties.

I am still a crazy bundle of emotions ranging from shock (I often still expect him to come home), disappointment, sadness, anger, loneliness to being grateful for the amazing times that we had and the memories that I have.  It is one heck of a rollercoaster ride!!!

Shortly after Steve passed I received a video from a firefighter brother of Steve’s singing Garth Brooks’ song “The Dance” – It is such a profound and honest song and truly I could have missed the pain, but I would have missed the dance!  And I wouldn’t have missed that for the world!!!!

Happy Birthday to you Steve, I hope someone bakes him a german chocolate cake ~